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January 1, 2014

I’m not ready for 2014

Filed under: administraviata,fitter/happier — Tags: — lexifab @ 10:14 pm

Happy New Year (aka “shit, is it that time already?”)

I made a kind-of resolution to get back on the writing wagon after a couple of long breaks (or one long break with some notable interruptions). Now it’s the evening of the first day of the new year, and it’s apparent that I’m not yet ready for that kind of commitment.

My general health has improved but I still tire easily and by the end of a typical day my brain is in a complete fog.Today I painted a wall for a couple of hours and now my arms, legs and back are a mess. I could do with a bit more stamina. And to be able to hold on to a though for more than thirty seconds after eight in the evening.

My state of employment is in flux right now. By the time I have some sense of how it’s going to play out, maybe in a couple of weeks, some potentially better options will have vanished. On the other hand, if I pursue those options, I may be dealing myself out of the running for something that would be riskier but far more satisfying. And I suck at making decisions. No, to be precise, I suck at reconciling myself to live with the decisions I make. I’d be happier if there were one clearly optimal path instead a collection of vague and unsatisfying alternatives. Wouldn’t we all? I hate the waiting game.

2014 should be a year in which I reinvent several important things about myself. I’m a little frustrated with myself for not coming out of the blocks a lot faster.

To share that feeling around, I’m probably going to blog with a high degree of incoherence over the next week or two as I sort some of the stuff in my head out. In particular what I hope to achieve in 2014 with my writing, about which I am (you may be surprised to learn) somewhat undecided.

1 Comment

  1. I have no idea why comments have been blocked. Will see what’s what and get back to you.

    Comment by lexifab — January 1, 2014 @ 10:19 pm

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