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April 27, 2014

The sea beneath my feet and an open horizon

Filed under: workin for the man — Tags: — lexifab @ 10:56 pm

The news I’ve been waiting for has arrived. My career as a public servant officially has an end date, which I believe to be the 26th of May. (I want to say I’m certain about the timing, but the redundancy letter was ambiguously worded, to say the least.)

As the formal interpretation about how public servants are required to conduct themselves in online spaces has changed of late, tightening the degree to which one might express criticism or a contrary position to that of the government of the day, I will for the moment confine myself to the observation that I am looking forward to seeking new opportunities.

In a broader sense, I am relieved and terrified. The work I have been doing has not quite reached an all-time low in terms of job satisfaction, but it’s been headed in that direction. So I’m glad that the end is in sight. I will be walking away with a sense of accomplishment, albeit perhaps an uneven one. What I won’t have are regrets for unmet achievements. I never had serious intentions to pursue my career any further than I already have. Frankly I’ve been treading water since before the kids were born – not coasting, but also not feeling any motivation to exceed expectations either.

If I’m honest, I’m just taking up space that someone hungrier and more energetic could be making much better use of. Or they would be, if my position were not being permanently dissolved. Good luck to my theoretical-if-not-actual successor, whoever they may turn out to be. They’ll need it.

In the meantime, I have a Plan A, which involves a radical and possibly quite risky change of career doing something for which I have no formal qualifications and unknown but quite likely poor prospects. If it works out I will be broke, working long, tiring hours and am likely to be exposed to near-lethal doses of talkback radio. On the other hand I will also not be writing reports and policies that nobody will ever read or act upon, so there’s that.

I also have a Plan B, which is a bit on the underdeveloped side and may involve getting certified to pour cappuccinos or asking which pump the customer filled up at.

At least I can hold out for the possibility that whatever comes next will be something that does not bore me absolutely rigid from one end of the day to the other. Right?

 

6 Comments »

  1. Way to go, Lexifab! I am looking forward to reading what you have to say come May 26th. Good luck!

    Comment by Dr Clam — April 28, 2014 @ 7:41 am

  2. Look, to be honest I’m probably not going to have much to say, but it will be nice not to feel like I have to censor myself quite so much.

    Comment by lexifab — April 28, 2014 @ 11:12 am

  3. I think you’ll enjoy it greatly. I just took a week off and did nothing but smash concrete, dig holes, sand and varnish and I enjoyed it to the point I considered whether I should look into a new career….then decided I’m carrying too many old injuries to pull it off. Making something with your hands (or destroying it!) has a visceral satisfaction you never get signing off on a report.

    Comment by Jenny — April 30, 2014 @ 9:16 am

  4. This is so true.

    Comment by Lexifab — April 30, 2014 @ 2:18 pm

  5. Though to be fair, I *did* get a tremendous sense of accomplishment on Monday from getting a policy document sent back to a sub-committee for revision…

    Comment by Dr Clam — April 30, 2014 @ 6:40 pm

  6. …which is more than I have accomplished over the last 18 months, despite working on numerous instances of exactly this.

    Comment by lexifab — May 5, 2014 @ 4:24 pm

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